this holiday....
can be said tat is the most unique holiday tat i have ever had
dunno y
the holiday is not as lively as i have thought
i try to grab the 'happiness' that i wish for
but it is still waving its hand one the other side of river
i dunno whether i have become more emotional or what
everything i try to do
all  will just turn into nothing
i am desperate to achieve...
but actually the desperation is holding my limbs
adding the distance between my goal
it is hard to accept the truth
but...
it is only the matter of time
one day......
it will still knock u down
hopeless and unknowing future are making me more frustrated
maybe....i still a child
i have no power and ability to make everything right
my thinking is immature
but trying to do something 'big'
rushing does not give any good result
next year would be completely different year
am i ready to face it?
i don't know
facing heartbreaking problems is inevitable
i have two hands...
but...
i was like using to much of my right hand
and forget about the other
or...i still cant control my both hand
but i still eagerly want to fly
BAKA!

AR!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

maybe...be an idiot...also is a nice thing...
BAKA...

Haiz.....What is time?...
I really dunno

baka...

i will become better!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

ashita no watashi wa genki 
haru wo matanai tsuyogari de hiraku hana no you ni 
ashita no watashi no genki 
"mou sukoshi soba ni ite" sonna fuu ni ienai 

today...is an unusual day....

dark and bright....
can i see the blue light between them?

when is the flower going to bloom again?
with the leaves filter the sunlight
making the air full of warmth and nice odour..
and standing within the humid atmosphere

don u all think is funny?
studying for 5 years in secondary...now...is SPM time...
maybe this is SPM....the exam stress look like come a bit early this time...
i feel like want to shout...but..i juz cant figure it out the suitable place for me to throw my voice
walking in a cool breeze with the sweat dropping and flowing at the side of my neck
losing all my appetite for food
juz hope tat this kind of feeling will disappear 

road....

ar............................................................................!
can i shout...?

now..i am totally blur...
i dunno wat shud i do and wat can i do....
i juz hope tat i wont blur for nth....

为自己心爱的人牺牲，是件快乐的事

ok..i will slp now......really............ slp....

it is just simple

it is just a simple thing

you just need to turn your mind

change your point of view

then...

you will have a different inspiration

再怎么说，我的心，也不是铁打的

look like...its the time to continue my foot steps....

水中映出来的天空

虽然距离很远

但是，

他们却很近。。。

tq so much....

everytime....for the purpose to meet with me

you need to go through a very hard task...

but...you still not giving up until the end

tq very much

i promise...

i will appreciate every moment we meet

and spend the time as useful as it can

tq for everything...

Very happy
I love to live in this world
Cuz got one girl
Teaching and caring for me
Occasionally
Realise that
I am truly..
A lucky guy to be with you

Know that?
Heart of mine
Only you have the qualification to keep
Realising that you are so important to me

Willing to see the smile that only heaven can make
Every time, I will pray and try all my best
Everlasting smile...is my ultimate goal

I don't want to waste anytime more

Living with my love one
Once standing next to you
Very knowing that, we need each other
Every moment, every time

You are my angel
Obstructing my bad side
Unveiling my true, pure love

the road 

it is beautiful

but

i must always thinking

and always be alert

to make sure that

i am happy

to be the only one

user

the flower will keep falling....

although at last..

the tree will left the leaves and the twigs

but...

there is nothing to be sad...

the cherry blossoms will be return to this world again....

if we encounter something sad

there is nothing for us to be upset

just....

take care for the tree....

love it, water it, give it fertilizers

i believe....

the flower will bloom better

and touch the deepest part of everyone's heart

what will it look like...
when the cherry blossoms mix with the snow....
i think...
it will be very beautiful...

it is really cold outside

如果我能捉得到阳光的尾巴，
不让斜阳里的微笑渐渐消失。

如果我能跟着雨点儿的旋律，
再跟着节奏慢慢的找回光丝。

这样的话，也许人生会更好

You've got that smile
That only heaven can make
I pray to god everyday
That you keep that smile

One day when the sky is falling
I'll be standing right next to you
Nothing will ever come between us
Cause I'll be standing right next to you

The small light is so far I can’t see it,
if I wish enough in order to see it…I’ll lose something.

this is the place

i live

the place

where memory created

love it so much

am i doing the right thing?

sometime...i can differentiate what i have to do and what i need to do...

or maybe

this is the way of life

bittersweet

we cant avoid unhappy things to happen in this world

but

we can create a lot of fun and happy

so that the sadness become nothing

happy won't last long

but

we can just find it again

find more happy and fun things

then your life will be very meaningful

the silver light of the moon...

Bittersweet

when u get something....

u will lost something...

Love Paradise

I'll love you till I die
Deep as sea
Wide as sky
The beauty of our love paints rainbows
Everywhere we go
Need you all my life
You're my hope
You're my pride
In your arms I find my heaven
In your eyes my sea and sky
May life our love paradise

ahha

Today, i realize a lot of thing.

or maybe

i am still a child

still a naive child

begging for something that i will never get forever

hahaha

think that i need to suit to the environment

life is tough

maybe have a child's thinking will make the world looks more colorful

but

the fact is still there

i cant be a child forever

if i do so

only me will get hurt

but

if i have a more mature thought

will i be happy

haha

this is life

it is full of question marks

that sometimes

you cant even have the answer till the day you leave this world

living in the 'question marks' environment

i have tried to answer them before

but

when the time is keep going

i know that

there is no answer in this world

or maybe i still a child

i still immature

hehe

never mind

sometimes

no answer is better

this make the life curious

although we might get hurt

but you will hurt with pleasure

it will continue to glow....

continue till infinity....

with the shine that is so unique....

Life

life is so unique...

live curious...

and you will know...

more and more...

and you will realize..

life is good...

today...suddenly ternampak my camera was keeping in the drawer

so..

because of boring

i just take the camera and go out for some picture...

what a lifeful day

The Sky

Can i touch the sky?

我走在路上

心有点沉闷的感觉

雨一点一滴，渐渐的停了

多么想痛快地在辽阔的草场上

把那酸甜苦辣都喊了出来

Flower is a unique thing

it have a lot of colours

with its own unique fragrance

some of them...u can smell it very fast

because it has a strong smell

some...u need to stay near to it

and that time u can smell the fragrance

some are attractive but some are not

There are many types of flower in this world

and i like to investigate and know more about it

especially the flower that i like the most

i just hope that...

the flower can always bloom and don't close even for 1 seconds

but...

is this possible?

there are many things that i need to learn

the world is so unique and life is awesome

there are many things that i still not yet know

or maybe...

i really need to turn into a papillon

actually.....not maybe...it should be a must

can i?

can i break through the cloud and see the stars?

can i touch the warmth of fire without hurting my finger?

can i turn into papillon?

help me

i am losing myself

i am getting lost

now...

i already don't know what i want

and what is my destination...

i am blur now...

who i am actually...

can u all tell me what is my true characteristic

can u all tell me who am i

somebody say i am good

somebody say i am bad

somebody say i am quiet

somebody say i am siao kia

somebody say i am konkam

somebody say i am hiao

and many many more

and the most important thing is

i still don't know who am i and what is my true characteristic

i just cant find it

i will never forget this day...video call...haha

Awak telah mengajar saya erti sebuah cinta yang ikhlas dan tulus......

Forget

I got something want to forget...

i hope i can forget it as fast as possible

like this thing never happen...

Life

sometimes...feel that...living in this world...

also very nice...

at least...

got somebody to share the happiness and sadness with me...

every night, there is someone who will make me happy before i go to my dream village

i love this kind of life

it is more than enough for the definition of wonderful

thank you very much...

now.....the 'past' had over...

let us create the future...

our future....

改变

我要如何

才能跟得上

改变的步伐？

只要能传承下去，

不停的恒心毅力，

学习会爱惜时间，

并改变许多错处。

才可以维护别人。

can i leave?

dunno y

suddenly

feel want to leave

haiz...

but i know

i will keep stuck in this place

haha

just want to go to a place

where do not have exam

ar.......

somebody...

teach me how to do...

thank you

Form 5

The world really harsh...

Sometime...i just want to find sometime to rest...

My daily routine is full...and i have no time to do something,

That can make my young life more meaningful

I still remember,

when i still a kid,

i always dream to become a teenager

that time,

i thought that teenager can do something that kids not allowed to do

such as outing with friends, having a hand phone ...

and teenager has a wide range of activities to do...

But now...

i hope that i can return to that time...

full of joys and play time

no need to worry about the future life, results that will get from every tiring exam...

and don't have the competitive feeling with peers.

when we grown up, our thinking and mind will become mature

supposedly, it is good,

but....

I have a friend, my friend told me

' is smiling will drop when we are growing up '

unfortunately...i start to believe

it is true

for me

a kid smile from heart

but i, most of the time

smile from face

it is not difficult to give a smile

the thing that difficult

is plus a ' true' in front of the ' smile'

day by day,

loneliness start to occupy my heart

i found out that,

the time that i stay out house (minus sleeping time )

is less than the time at school

maybe, from now,

i should call my school as my new house

at least, in this year

somebody has come into my life

that change my life

and give me a lot of memories

this person,

these memories,

give me strength

keep my life going...

活在这世界上，也有十六年多了

多姿多彩的十六年

但是，有时想想，我还不能真正的了解，

我，到底是个怎样的人。

对我而言，我不是迷失自己，

而是，完全不知道，自己，是什么。

我想要什么，我喜欢做什么，

其实，不太了解。

掩饰自己，这就是我。

我变了吗？

我就连自己，都不知道我是谁了。

改变了什么，

我不太了解。

我向往自由，

被一大堆的补习与活动，

包扎起来的感觉

不好受，

好久没在下午踏脚踏车了

原来，踏脚车

也是个梦。

是个追求豁然开放的一个梦。

有时觉得想离开，

但这不可能

现实始终得面对。

得了一个，就失去一个

现在，就让我，好好的珍惜，

我所得到，我所拥有的

一切。。。

the feeling of missing somebody...

suddenly...feel that...i am really a bad person...

maybe...haiz...ar.....................................!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

don want to say anymore.............

bad is bad...and i think...i cant change it anymore...

i try to...but i fail...

i......

sometimes.....i really really hate myself...

how can i be such a person....

sry.....

经过了昨天的事情，与一番的思考，我虽然还在想，但我已经接近明白，与理解，下一段路，要怎么走。

我一天一天的更了解，没关系，我等你。。。