help me

i am losing myself

i am getting lost

now...

i already don't know what i want

and what is my destination...

i am blur now...

who i am actually...

can u all tell me what is my true characteristic

can u all tell me who am i

somebody say i am good

somebody say i am bad

somebody say i am quiet

somebody say i am siao kia

somebody say i am konkam

somebody say i am hiao

and many many more

and the most important thing is

i still don't know who am i and what is my true characteristic

i just cant find it