27.3

song says..........

From the start...i never expect that...i will be so weak...
but....the truth is heartbreaking and the change is unexpected
it won't return anymore
my capability is too low
every time i  very envy that other can make it so perfect

it's the time that i should wake up from dreams
life is going and no one is waiting
should start my steps....now

If one day
I have his ability
will my personality change too?

this holiday....
can be said tat is the most unique holiday tat i have ever had
dunno y
the holiday is not as lively as i have thought
i try to grab the 'happiness' that i wish for
but it is still waving its hand one the other side of river
i dunno whether i have become more emotional or what
everything i try to do
all  will just turn into nothing
i am desperate to achieve...
but actually the desperation is holding my limbs
adding the distance between my goal
it is hard to accept the truth
but...
it is only the matter of time
one day......
it will still knock u down
hopeless and unknowing future are making me more frustrated
maybe....i still a child
i have no power and ability to make everything right
my thinking is immature
but trying to do something 'big'
rushing does not give any good result
next year would be completely different year
am i ready to face it?
i don't know
facing heartbreaking problems is inevitable
i have two hands...
but...
i was like using to much of my right hand
and forget about the other
or...i still cant control my both hand
but i still eagerly want to fly
BAKA!

AR!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

maybe...be an idiot...also is a nice thing...
BAKA...