the feeling of missing somebody...

suddenly...feel that...i am really a bad person...

maybe...haiz...ar.....................................!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

don want to say anymore.............

bad is bad...and i think...i cant change it anymore...

i try to...but i fail...

i......

sometimes.....i really really hate myself...

how can i be such a person....

sry.....

经过了昨天的事情，与一番的思考，我虽然还在想，但我已经接近明白，与理解，下一段路，要怎么走。

我一天一天的更了解，没关系，我等你。。。

a lot of thing to do..but nothing have already done..

arh...

sometimes, i wonder...

till when that i can get rid off my laziness.

i know i have a lot of thing haven done...

but........

i just lazy to finish it....

haiz...

i really don't know...

who can actually pull out the feeling of hardworking from my deepest part of my heart...

i really hope that this will happen soon

because if this laziness keep controlling my body...

and my work maybe will not to be finished...

haiz...somebody...pls help me...

actually...i want to thanks for my sister

because just now she helped my to pull out a bit the sense of hardworking...

if not...i will now at the village of my dream...

hahaha

At last...I realise

hiaz...long time no write post already...

this 2 weeks of holiday is really boring actually...

haiz....my parents don't want to take me go anywhere...even Penang also don't want..

all stay at home...no place to go...

luckily on last Thursday my friends come stay in my house for one night...

made my holiday more colourful and fun...

actually...this was the first time i experience friends staying in my house....

these also need to thanks for my parent not at home...haha

This holiday....i realise and know a lot of things...

at that night, while my friends were in my house...we talked a lot...

and we know each other better than before..,hehehe

haiz...this holiday is actually not very fun,, because of the account folio

WTF...it is hard to do..

hiaz....so, i intend to copy and also copied already...but...eventually...hiaz...(don't want to say)

say only will make me feel bad... never mind la...it had already over...

so...at last....my account folio.............still haven't finished..hahaha

but at least going to finish...

if want me to say..this holiday actually i am quite free...

but don't know why...

all of my friends seem so busy....

i am quite curious..

is really this holiday got so much thing to do??

haiz...don't want to think so much la...

think only will make my head feel dizzy =.=

hehe...

and....this holiday, i finally found out that..

every thing will not succeed as what we have already thought...

every thing we thought, is all wonderful and success....

but the fate is really very cruel and cold-blooded..

it will disappoint you with 100% different than what you have thought

haiz.........

never mind la

it is all over...

and i already gave up and i would not waste my times and feelings anymore...

this will only end up with nothing but desperation

i don't want it anymore

i want forget it

every thing that i have gave...is like throwing a stone into the middle of the sea.

i will not get it back...

actually..

at first

i thought i will be succeed...

because the respond was really good

i actually felt very happy and relieved at that time

but

when the time goes on

i could feel that

this was only my imagination

actually it was nothing since it was began

hiaz...........

forget it la

hahaha

because forget this...the others will coming soon

Overslept

Hahaha.....
today's morning......
i overslept......

Let me tell u all a secret.
i am a student, or better said to be a boy,
that cannot wake up by my myself...


What an embarrassing,
recently, my mother go to a 4 days course,
and my father got something else to do,
so,
'álone' is the best word to describe me dyring these couple of days....

actually,
i didn't aspect that i will overslept this morning....
i thought that i am able to wake up independently,
but the truth is,
i could not....

i can't forget the scene that i saw when i open my eyes....
usually, i woke up before the sun rises....
but today,
i could hear the birds was chirping under the blue sky...

haiz.....
never mine la...
i still can go to the drama practice in the evening...
fortunately,
my friend told me that today 's homework was just a little bit....


so now,
i just that hope that tomorrow,
i will not repeat my wrong again,
if not,
hehehe......

The start of 2010

Time....
Huh, the time is like flying in the speed similar with rocket.

Now, i am already Form 4 and my new class is 4SN2,
and i am the chosen one....
to become the assistant monitor of that class.....
Actually, i am neither happy nor sad..
Just...
I will become a little bit busy la....

In form 4, there are a lot of new subject.
They all very, very hard...
So, need to study more...
but i don't know why,
recently i am lazy to read books and always facebooking and watching television.

Maybe i had did these things to much during the holidays...
so...
cannot change my habit yet...
maybe i need more times.

Tuition had started.
in some tuition, especially English,
I met a lot of friends that had same primary school as me.
Very happy to met them..haha..