can i leave?

dunno y

suddenly

feel want to leave

haiz...

but i know

i will keep stuck in this place

haha

just want to go to a place

where do not have exam

ar.......

somebody...

teach me how to do...

thank you

Form 5

The world really harsh...

Sometime...i just want to find sometime to rest...

My daily routine is full...and i have no time to do something,

That can make my young life more meaningful

I still remember,

when i still a kid,

i always dream to become a teenager

that time,

i thought that teenager can do something that kids not allowed to do

such as outing with friends, having a hand phone ...

and teenager has a wide range of activities to do...

But now...

i hope that i can return to that time...

full of joys and play time

no need to worry about the future life, results that will get from every tiring exam...

and don't have the competitive feeling with peers.

when we grown up, our thinking and mind will become mature

supposedly, it is good,

but....

I have a friend, my friend told me

' is smiling will drop when we are growing up '

unfortunately...i start to believe

it is true

for me

a kid smile from heart

but i, most of the time

smile from face

it is not difficult to give a smile

the thing that difficult

is plus a ' true' in front of the ' smile'

day by day,

loneliness start to occupy my heart

i found out that,

the time that i stay out house (minus sleeping time )

is less than the time at school

maybe, from now,

i should call my school as my new house

at least, in this year

somebody has come into my life

that change my life

and give me a lot of memories

this person,

these memories,

give me strength

keep my life going...

活在这世界上，也有十六年多了

多姿多彩的十六年

但是，有时想想，我还不能真正的了解，

我，到底是个怎样的人。

对我而言，我不是迷失自己，

而是，完全不知道，自己，是什么。

我想要什么，我喜欢做什么，

其实，不太了解。

掩饰自己，这就是我。

我变了吗？

我就连自己，都不知道我是谁了。

改变了什么，

我不太了解。

我向往自由，

被一大堆的补习与活动，

包扎起来的感觉

不好受，

好久没在下午踏脚踏车了

原来，踏脚车

也是个梦。

是个追求豁然开放的一个梦。

有时觉得想离开，

但这不可能

现实始终得面对。

得了一个，就失去一个

现在，就让我，好好的珍惜，

我所得到，我所拥有的

一切。。。

the feeling of missing somebody...

suddenly...feel that...i am really a bad person...

maybe...haiz...ar.....................................!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

don want to say anymore.............

bad is bad...and i think...i cant change it anymore...

i try to...but i fail...

i......

sometimes.....i really really hate myself...

how can i be such a person....

sry.....

经过了昨天的事情，与一番的思考，我虽然还在想，但我已经接近明白，与理解，下一段路，要怎么走。

我一天一天的更了解，没关系，我等你。。。